哭过真的会好了吗?

这几个星期,我的心情真的有很大的变化,真的很复杂...

上个星期,我还在家里,跟家人和一班朋友高高兴兴的庆祝新年...那时候的我,真的一点烦恼都没有,也真的很开心...那种感觉是发自内心的,伪装不了,也掩饰不住...我真的很享受....想不到这个星期,我的心情却和之前有了那么大的差别...一回到KL, 就有一大堆事情困扰我,真的很烦...

我每天都在温习,可是却什么都读不进脑, 上课也是在发呆,根本什么都听不进去....结果,考试的时候答到乱七八糟,一塌糊涂...我一次一次尝试用心去做一件事,却一次又一次的失败...真的很想放弃了...突然间,我觉得自己真的很糟高...什么都做不好....

昨天晚上,一个人在客厅里听歌...听着听着,眼泪就不知不觉流了下来...我记得以前朋友和我说过, 听抒情歌的时候,真的会哭,可是我不信,因为我真的没试过...可是这次我却真的因为抒情歌而流泪...真的很想家,很想我那永远的避风港...

我时常都在听梁文音的一首歌-哭过就好...那是一首很好听的歌...可是,哭过真的会好了吗???我哭过了,可是为什么我却没有好一点...哪怕只是好那一点点...

我真的累了,真的很想回家....

Restless

I'm damn tired now...Having my two tests in the morning after a 1 week CNY break...

I played too much during CNY...Went out with friends and familu almost everyday during CNY, until I realised that I've not much time left to study for the tests...But too bad I wasn't in mood to study for the tests...

After the 1 week break, I came back to KL...I started to worry cause I really don't understand anything from my lecture, especially for Theory Of Interest...And so, I started to study, started to do tutorial questions...I stayed up late for few nights...Of course not just to study, I also watch drama...Somehow, time just past fast enuf...Although I've finished to browse through all the lecture notes, but I can't understand some of the parts....In fact, I only understand some of it..There's still so much that I don't understand...I really felt to give up...

The tests today were tough...Linear Algebra was still ok for me...But Theory Of Interest, I did badly, really really very bad till I think I can't score even 5/20...If I were to gred my performance today, I will give myself an E...I really can't do any questions in the test...I felt so sorry for my parents...really really very sorry to them...

I'm really exhausted now...Few nights din't sleep well but yet I still can't do my test....I looked like a panda now...haiz...Actuarial Science is really a very very very tough course to take....I'm so restless....

CNY Mode On~~~

CNY mode activated!!!!!!

It's nearer and nearer to CNY...No mood study dy, thinking about what to wear during CNY, what to eat during CNY and also where to go during CNY everyday...

And so, to celebrate the coming CNY, I had lots of activities with my dearest friends....First of all, I went for a reunion dinner with Tim, Jelly, Ting An and his housemates yesterday...We went to Shogon in 1U...There's a variety of food there, too much choices until I didn't know what to eat...haha...I just remembered I took a lot of sushi at first and some other snacks...eat and eat and eat...until very very very full...Ting An and his housemates took a lot of tempuras, 2 plates full(and maybe even more)...And they were able to finish them all...haha...Really very geng...By the time we finished eating all those food we took, we were very full, full until I can't stand straight...And guess what???Tim, Jelly and I have to buy ENO after that...It's the first time I eat till I feel like vomit...Won't be able to eat that much anymore and perhaps I won't go to eat buffet anymore this few months...

Then today, Gary Wong came all the way from Kampar to KL to visit us...They planned to go Mid Valley once Gary reached...But too bad I had class till 5pm...So, they tolerate and waited for us until our class finished at 5pm..We went all the way from our campus to Mid Valley without GPS and someone who know the way in the car...Kelvy and I became the "GPS"...hehe...and we reached Mid Valley safely without getting lost...Really proud of myself being able to show people the way in KL....

I can't resist myself from buying things in Mid Valley...I bought a dress for myself and a shirt for my brother...Haiz...spent money again...But I think this will be the last outfit I'll buy for this CNY...coz I really bought too much ady...have to save up ady!!!!

Then, we failed to show the correct way back to Setapak during our journey home...We got lost somewhere...And I think we passed by the longest pasar malam in Cheras which Yew Hong and Sook Mun always mentioned...We wanted so much to stop there and go to that pasar malam...but too bad the others were waiting for us in Station 1 to celebrate Seng Hock's birthday...Nevermind lah, next time we'll have the chance to visit that pasar malam...mayb the next time Gary come KL...but we have to make sure we won't get lost again...haha

We tried our best to go back to Setapak asap and we were able to reach before 12...The others were waiting for us dy...As usual, we bought a cake and a present for him...Hope he'll like the bag that Kelvy and I choose...Happy advance Birthday On Seng Hock!!!!

I'm going back to Kuantan in 24 hour's time...I'm so excited now!!!Wish those who are going home for CNY to have safe journeys and Happy CNY!!!!

May U Rest In Peace

This post is dedicated to my dog-->Lucky

It died in an accident this morning....bang by a car...haiz...Poor dog...only 1/2 year old...May u rest in peace....

U'll always be in our hearts....

Outings~

Counting down to CNY...haha...It's only 1 week's time from now...I'm so so so excited bout it...

Last two days, I did not do anything else, but SHOPPING~~~On Friday, I went to Times Square with Peggy and Kelvy...The 3 of us went shopping right after our class that ends at 10am...We ate Sushi King, which is Peggy's favourite...The 1st time I can't finish my meal in Sushi King..I really think that Zanmai is better than Sushi King..haha...Then, we started to shop without spending much time chatting in Sushi King...I bought really a lot of stuffs...Shoes, bag, dress, shirts...Spent quite a lot...So do Kelvy and Peggy...2 of them also bought many things...haha...Our hands were full of plastic bags...We even planned to go Sg.Wang...Luckily, we had not enuf time to do that, if not, I really can't imagine how much I'll spend...haha...Shopping with 2 of them was fun...But 3 of us really can't go shopping too often...We will spend out of budget...And so, we planned for our next shopping spree together before sem break this sem...hehe...

-All our things-

Then, the next day, I went to 1U with Kelvy, Zhong Hao, Lala, Jid Ian, and Seng Hock...Too bad Peggy can't join us...It's damn far from Setapak to 1U...We took LRT...20++ stations i think from Wangsa Maju station to Kelana Jaya stations...But the journey wasn't boring...We chatted happily without considering the others in the LRT...haha...I tried hard to controll myself not to buy anything there actually...But I failed to do that, bought 2 shirts and 2 pants there...Oh ya, and 3 pairs of socks worth RM2 each pair...They were so cheap so I bought them...haha...Then, after half-way shopping, we went to watch Woohoo...Quite a nice movie made by Malaysians...Quite funny also...haha...After dinner at KFC, we shopped for another 1 hr...Until 1 of my contact lens fall off...In the LRT, again we did something rediculous...Took some pictures there...hehe...

It was fun during those 2 days...Happy and enjoyable...But I really spent a lot of money, have to save up from now on...

Can't wait for CNY now....Hope to get to meet with some of my friends in Kuantan when I go back...Hope I can make it if there are any gathering before Calvin and Ji Hong heading to Australia during CNY...=P