Discrete Mathematics--The Last

Whoa...I can't find a word to describe how I feel now...I feel so so so RELIEF now...I finally taken my last paper yesterday and now...I'm back in my lovely hometown again!!!So nice being at home....

I was so worry and nervous about my paper yesterday on Sunday because I dun really spend enough time for it...I was so damn nervous until I can't sleep for the whole Sunday night...So damn stressed that night...I know that I was very tired..but I really can't sleep that night...So I woke up a few times that night...I took out my MP3 and listen to musics so that I can sleep, I took out my notes to revise...But yet I can't sleep...I forced myself to sleep and I tried to"count sheep"...I still can't sleep...At last, I don't know how I fall asleep...But it was not a nice sleep...

Then, the next day, I woke up very early in the morning while the exam supposed to start on 9 am...Kelvy and I went to car park and waited for Tim for more than 10 minutes...He wasn't there yet...We started to worry...So scared that he cannot wake up for the last paper and we tried to call him...Unfortunately, we can't reach him because his sim card and his phone spoilt dy...Then,I decided to go to his house to look for him...and perhaps...wake him up...Luckily, we saw him getting out of the lift before I went up to look for him...haha...

I don't remember what time we reached campus...When we reached, people were going into to exam hall already...So I quickly took out all stationery and went into the exam hall...The paper wasn't very hard...Still OK for me...although I din really understand the last two chapters...After I passed it up, I suddenly felt so tired and I lied on the desk and closed my eyes for a few minutes...having my very very short rest...I felt like I've not slept for a few nights...Really so tired right after the moment I passed up my exam paper...Maybe it's because all my tense had gone at that moment...

Then, I went to Times Square with Kelvy...Just two of us because Kelvy wanted to buy a lot of things...I was so excited and I bought many things...But Kelvy, the one who suggested to go shopping just bought a pair of shoes...Haha...I'm going to become a shopaholic already...We stayed in Times Square until 3 pm...Both of us were exhausted as we din really had enough rest for the past few days...We decided to go home after that...But I think that it was still early and I decided to go back to Kuantan...

And so,we rushed back home...It was really rushed as I'm supposed to take the 5pm bus and I had to go home from Times Square, take my luggage and go to the bus station within 2 hours...Luckily, I still managed to reached the bus station on time...But, that was really tiring...I felt like my legs were going to break after a whole day shopping and rushing for bus...

I reached Kuantan at 8.30pm and I was too lazy and tired to do other things other than to rest...
I'm going to have three weeks holidays starting from now...Feel good to be at home...I'm going to have a nice rest during these three weeks...Wish myself HAPPY HOLIDAY~~

No Mood Study

Today, I supposed to be busy studying for my Discrete Maths since I really dun understand the last chapter of it...But too bad I'm too lazy to study...I juz take a quick glance bout those tutorial questions in those chapters in front because I'm planning to give up...Really not in the mood to study now...

Many of my friends finished their exam dy...Haiz...When is mine???Mine is on Monday...I will only be free on Monday...Althugh it's only one and a half day from now...But it seems like one and a half month for me...So damn boring staying at home...Facing my lecture notes that is very very very thick...and facing all the facts that I dun understand although I dy read for a few times...

Haiz...Really plan to give up dy...I dy studied twice...No use to study for the third time if I really dun understand....Oh God...Please help me...I really need some help now...Please help me to get rid of all my laziness....Please help me so that I can pay attention to my study...

Business Accounting--The Fifth

Finally come to the second last paper...The paper today wasn't very tough...At least after I finished all of the questions, I still have half an hour to check for my answer...Hope this paper can help me to pull up my CGPA lah..although it can not really help a lot...But at least it can help a little...

Final paper is on Monday...and there are many facts for me to memorise for the next subject...I'm so eager to go home...Can't wait for Monday to come...I really miss home a lot!!!

Fourth:Introduction To Japanese

After a six-day-break, I had my next paper--Japanese Language just now...It's not really an easy paper...But, since it's not included in our CGPA, we only aim for a pass for that paper...Since I only aim for a pass and not an A, the effort I've put in for it was very little as compared to the other subjects...HAHA...Guess I can pass the paper...Coz can answer most of the questions...Although some of them I'm not so sure bout the answers...

My next paper is Business Accounting...This should'nt be tough for me...Coz it's almost the same as what I did during my secondary school...The only difference is the language...But yet I still have to study for it coz I've already forgotten some of the things that I've studied last time...Frankly, I'm not in "study mode" now...Some of my friends already finished their exam...and the six-day rest makes me even more lazier than previously...The last and toughest paper will be on next Monday...I'm really worry bout it now...Hope Monday will come soon...I miss my home so much....

I'm going to sit for my fifth paper tomorrow...This means I can't do anything more for the past four papers...Thinking back bout those few papers, I think they are rediculous....Last time, during my secondary school, there's only A and B in my world...When I enrolled myself in the foundation course, I din get any C also...But now, the A and B seem to dissappear from my life...C and D come and replace A and B in my life...After I step into my degree life, I'm no longer dealing with A and B, I'm dealing with pass and fail...and repeat or not repeat...It's really rediculous...I don't know what happened to me....I don't know why I can't get good results anymore, even in those mid-term test that are much more easier than the actual exam papers...

Two more papers to go!!!!!

I will fight for it!!!!

Life

These few days, I've been watching GhosT Whisperer...At first, I was watching it because I've no more drama to watch and I just can't stay at home studying and studying for the whole day...It's just a tool for me to relax myself during the exam week...However, once I started watching it, I can't stop myself from watching, and I'm totally addicted to it...

It was a nice drama indeed...Sometimes, we can't deny that watching drama is not going to be beneficial...It does...Watching Ghost Whisperer somehow helps me to understand meanings of life...

People always say that life is short...Yea..Life is really short!!! We are not going to know when are we going to leave...Leave our family, leave our loved ones ,and leave our friends...Life can be really short...Maybe one day, we'll just get hit by a car, or even get hit by a thunder and we'll just die off...And then, we can't do anything that we think we should do anymore...When we realize, it will be too late for us...There's nothing else that we can do for those people around us anymore...

So, life is short and so we have to treasure everything that we have in our lives, everyone that we met in our lives, everyday that we have in our lives...Life can be short...and we can make it as meningful and beautiful as we want...From today onwards, I'll appreciate everyone in my life, my friends, my family and even my pets with love...I'll feel grateful for everything that god gives me...I'll feel thankful for every single day in my life and fill them up with beautiful colours...

LIFE CAN BE SHORT

BUT LIFE CAN BE MEANINGFUL

ONLY IF WE KNOW HOW TO TREASURE OUR LIVES

♥WITH LOVE♥

EVERY MOMENT IN OUR LIVES IS BEAUTIFUL

Probabality and Statistics-The Third

Well, these few days I've been spending my time studying for this subject...Of course, I won't sacrifice my time of watching drama...I've been half-studying, half- watching drama these few days...Seems not paying much attention while I was studying...But, at least I've finished studying all the syllabus and managed to do the tutorial questions...

Back to the exam paper 2day...It wasn't as hard as what I thought it would be...and I think I managed to answer more than half of the entire paper...It's good enough for me dy...Coz I really din expect too much for this paper....At least I've tried my best on this paper...

Hari Raya is 3 days away...I wish that I can go home so much coz many of my friends will be in Kuantan this weekend and they are all having holidays...Haiz...But I can't...I've three more papers to go before the next paper...So, I'm going to spend my five days holiday studying in KL before I can really have a rest at home...So damn boring studying...

Now, I'm going to take a short rest...Not planning to study 2nite...Hehe...

While I'm thinking of where to go for this coming semester break, Kelvy offered me to follow her back to Port Dickson...She's going to bring me out to play...erm...although she's still thinking of where to go...SERIOUSLY, I'm going to consider bout that since TD4's plan of trip to Genting seems failed...and I'm so so desperate going to travel!

Programming-The Second

Out of six, I dy sat two of my exam paper...Regret that I din study hard for the exam???No...No time for me to regret...It's too late to regret...

My Calculus paper last saturday was suck...I did it so badly...I admit...It's mainly due to my laziness...But then, after the paper that day, after I realised that I did so badly in my exam, after I realized that I did not studied hard enough...I started to worry that my CGPA will not exceed 2.0...and the worst of all, I kenot proceed taking PTPTN loan...Then, I started to study hard for the next paper on Saturday night...It's been quite a while since I last studied so hard for my exam...I really put the highest of my level of attention to study Programming that night and the day after...But, that only last for one and a half day...Guess what??? I was watching drama, facebook-ing and reading people's blog whole day yesterday...Din really bother bout the exam...That's me...That's the lazy me...

Fortunately, the exam paper today is still OK....OK doesn't mens I know how to do all of the questions...Ok doesn't means I'm sure that all my answers are correct...OK just means I can still manage to do the question compared to my Calculus paper...So, it's actually not something that I should feel happy thinking that the exam paper is OK...

My next paper will be Probability and Statistics...Something that an actuarial science students should be good at it...But not me...I've no idea bout what's going on in the last two chapters...I've started a bit on the last chapter...But I really dun undestand....Guess Friday will be a hard time for me...Struggling to answer the exam paper....

Basically, there's no time for me to feel sad for those two previous papers now...My time is precious now...I've to study hard for my coming paper now...No time to regret...No time to play...Cause it's STUDY TIME!!!!!!!!

First paper:Calculus

I juz wanna say...My first paper in the exam is so damn difficult...Maybe one of the reason is I did not put much effort enough for it...But, the paper itself is really difficult...haiz...cham dy...I dunwan to fail this paper...I dunwan to repeat this subject in the future...

I dun dare to see my result...What I can do now is just waiting for miracle...I hope there will be miracle...Is there miracle in this world???Or izzit juz a dream for me???I dunno....

My next paper is on Tuesday...It's Programming...I've no confidence in it...Coz I keep skipping class...I really dun understand what the lecturer is talking...Haiz...I think it's gonna be another tough paper also...

My future is dull..Am I taking the right path taking Actuarial Science???I dunno...However, there will be no turning back for me...I noe that it is impossible for me to give up now...It's impossible for me to change course now...and I dun plan to change course....even in the future...

Since there's no other choices, I shud be studying harder now...So that I will be able to score better later...Gambateh!!!

Exam

I'm back in KL again...no doubt...for my exam, not for other purposes....

Tomorrow, I'll be having my first exam paper...I dun think I've prepared well enough...But, I did studied all the things in the notes...Hope that will help...Coz I noe I have no time to go through each and every tutorial question...and I'm too lazy to do that...

Sinmun is very lazy...Why I say so???Because....Every1 in my house are busy studying now...But what I'm doing now???Facebook...Online...PPS...My roommate, Kelvy Tee was studying from the morning until now...I wonder how she can do that...So damn boring studying all the maths stuff the whole day...

I give up dy...Really hope the exam paper wont be so hard tomorrow...

Study Week

Sometimes, I try so hard to do something...But in the end, I would'nt be able to drag myself on the right track to the right thing...

I could'nt believe what I'm doing right now...My first paper in final exam is on Saturday..I know I should be studying hard for it because I din score well in the midterm tests and quizes...But I really can't do it...My heart is not with me...It's not with me when I'm studying....and I really can't focus on what I'm studying...I wonder why I can't sit still...studying for a few hours non-stop like what I did during my schooldays...

Final is really near now...In less than 1 week's time, I'm going to sit for my first paper...I really dunno how much I can score in the final...I really have to manage my time...I should fully utilize my study week to study, not to go shopping, to online,to go out yam cha...ARGH!!!!!

Hopes....

1st of September, it's the starting of a new month again...It's also the starting of my nightmare...Because final is really very very NEAR...

Today, I attended my last Calculus lecture...During the lecture, our lecturer, Dr.Chen told us sumting which I think is quite meaningful...Look at the picture above, what do you see??

It's normal that you see a black dot....But, do you notice that behind the black dot, the striking white background is there??

Now, take a look at this picture...

You see that the background of the picture is black and dull...But, in centre of the picture, there is a white dot....

In both pictures, the black colour represents desperate, sadness, and dissapointments...The white colour represents hopes...When god closses a door, he will always open a window for us...There's always hope when one is totally disspointed at something...It's juz depends on how we view failure...If we think that failure is a way to make us strong, we can always see successes behind the failure...

It's juz the same as my life...I got my coursework marks for Calculus today...It's juz a little bit more than half of the total coursework marks...However, it's more than what I think I can get...Not to say that I'm satisfied with what I got, but at least I know that I'm not really that weak....I expected that I will score lower than half of the total coursework marks...I'll work hard in my final so that I can get a "nice" gred in my final...I know that I can still manage to catch up in my final...I know that there is still a hope for me to score higher in my final....

Final exam is juz around the corner...To all my friends...Gambateh...