Failed

Finally, the day had come...I finally had my calculus test 2day...It was damn hard...All my efforts, my sleeping hours were wasted...I did not answer all the questions...and those I had answered..I dunno whether I had answered them correctly or not...It's kinda dissapointed and I feel like giving up during that moment...I did studied all the syllabus...But in the end, I can't even finished all the questions...quite sad...and I feel like I'm going to score less than half of the overall marks...haiz...

I really paid quite a lot of efforts for this test...I can't sleep for the last two days...I dunno why also...I was very tired those two days...But when I closed my eyes, I can't sleep...This was very tiring...Maybe I was too stressed...That's the only reason I can think of...

Many of my friends said that the test was hard too...Most of us did really paid lots of hard works on it...Haiz...Maybe the test was really tough...But, according to Dr. Chen, our Calculus lecturer, the final exam will be tougher than this test...We were shocked and we wondered how are we going to go for our final exams...

After the test, I skipped my Programming Lecture and went back home to sleep...I had a nice sleep after the test...Felt so relief after the test...I guess maybe I was too tired since the last two days I din had enough sleep...

Another test is coming on Thursday....This time, its Business Accounting...I havent start study yet actually...2ml will be a tough day for me...Hope that I can cover those topics that are going to be tested on Thursday...=P

Calculus Day

My brain is going to burst....Studying calculus for the whole day...My brain is full of laws and rules....All those theories that I dun really understand how they came from...and how am I going to apply them....So damn boring...Right after the moment I woke up, I took out my Calculus notes and text book, then I started to study those books, trying to digest them...Really very very very very BORING....

Its not my style to keep on staring on the book if I cannot understand...Its useless to look at those facts again and again if I dun understand...So, I started to take out my laptop...and now...I'm stick to my laptop again...Although there are still quite a lot of facts that I dun understand...Haiz...When can I change my lazy attitude???When can I improve my method of studying???I wonder when the day will come....

It's hard for me to studying the same thing for the whole day...Just like its hard for me to keep quite for 10 minutes...I understand myself very well...So,I dun know when can I fully "digest" those facts in the books...Just hope that the test will end soon...

An outing at Pavillion

Done my Discrete Maths Test today...Overall, the test is quite easy....My few days effort spent on it had not wasted...thank god...After the test, I went to Pavillion with Kelvy, Seng Hock, Zhong Hao, Chin Hui, Joshua, Jia Ann and Sarjan...We went to watch Harry Porter...Many people told me that the movie is not actually nice...I think that it was okay...Better than Underworld and 10000 BC...Those two movies were some of the worst movies I had ever watched...

We took some photos in Pavillion....

Calculus test is on Tuesday...I will study hard for it 2ml...But before that, I'll just have a nice and sweet dream 1st....

Tired

Degree life shud be enjoyable...But now, I fee like I'm going 2 become crazy...Crazy of quizes, crazy of tests, crazy of the moments before getting back the results, and crazy when everyone's marks is higher than mine....At this particular moment, I really hope that I can just relax and do nothing...Just to let my brain to have enough rest....

My parents always had so much of confidence in me....They always believe that I can do well in my exams..and they always had no worries on my academic performances...Sometimes, I really feel that they had given me too much of stresses...I was scared that I can't get good results, scared that I would dissapoint them...That's why I always study hard for my exams during school days...

But now, I feel like I will dissapoint them...My calculus was not that good as I expected...I don't understand what my lecturer had taught, I don't know how to do tutorials questions, I don't understand those questions that my friends are discussing....I started to get worry...Did I choose the correct course???Calculus is going to become one of the major subjects I'm going to take in my future 3 years...I'm scared that I can't survive even for this Introductory Calculus...I'm scared that those people around me will score much more higher than me...and I'm scared that I will dissapoint those people that I love...

My brain is going to be disfunctionable soon....The more I try to study, the easier I forgot what I've studied...The more I've expected, the least I get...I know that I can be better...But for now, I think that what I really need is rest...I'm tired already...Tired of doing tutorials, tired of studying, tired of waking up early in the morning for classes and tests, tired of life...Just give me a break....

Not Satisfied

I got back my Calculus quiz result 2day...It's not too bad but I'm still not satisfied with the results I got...Maybe its becoz most of my friends scored higher than me...I was a little bit dissapointed at that moment...Actually, the quiz was quite easy...Those questions that I can't score are mostly due to my careless mistakes...At that moment when I got back the paper, I was really disspointed with it...It was actually less than what I've expected...I swear I will work harder for my mid-term paper next Tuesday...Hope that my mid-term paper will be able to cover the marks that I lost for my quiz...

I think it's a tough moment for every UTAR students now...Every1 are having exams, busy with assignments and also presentations...Thank god I dun hav much assignments for this semester...and no presentation for this semester...But, I do have many tests and quizes...much more tests and quizes as compared to the others...It's indeed a hard time for us... Gambateh,everyone!!!All these will come to an end...By that moment, we will find ourselves better than what we are now...We will find ourselves be able to cope with all those stresses and peer in our lives....That day is foreseeable...It will come soon...Gambateh=P

First PHP Meeting

Hmm...2day nothing special happened...Juz that I attended my 1st PHP(Peer Helping Programme) meeting after class...

Before that, I've no idea bout what is PHP...Honestly, I really hoped to quit this programme before I went to the meeting 2day...I thought that this programme will be quite boring...I rather stay at home and sleep...Anyway, after I went through the 1st module in this programme, I think that it is still ok...I can go through those 5 modules in this programme within this semester i think...

The first activity of the day was relaxation...It's a way to help us to relax ourselves...relax our muscles and our bodies...After that, we have to introduce ourselves to our group members...There are 8 members in my group, including me...Then, we had some interaction with our group members....Overall, my group members are quite cooperattive and friendly...Finally, I got to know some senior through this programme...haha....

Hope that I can get more through this programme, get to know more people, get to know more techniques and skills to communicate with people, and get to know the correct way of helping people around me...

Feel Good to Be at Home

Back from hometown to KL...My busy life will start again....Arghh!!!I wonder why the time at home passed through so fast...Anyway, it feel good to be at home, although the time is short...

During that few days at home, I really ate a lot...First day at home, my mom cooked a few my favourite dishes for dinner...Then, I ate durians for supper...Nice durians...Its warm to eat durians together with my family...Second day at home, I never do anything at home...Although it's a bit boring...but I enjoyed the boredom staying at home...doing nothing...At night, I ate steamboat for dinner...It's been a long time since I last ate steamboat...As usual, I was the 1st person who started to eat and I was the last person who left the dining table...haha...I ate till very full...My plan to lose weight failed again!!!!

Guess what???There is a new pet in my house...It's name is Lucky...It's my sister's suggestion to breed this little cute puppy...I know that she can manage to take care of this little creature...She really love small little creatures a lot...That's why I am so confident that she will take care of Lucky...

-My sister and her new pet-

Now, I'm back in KL...studying for Discrete Mathematics and Calculus...preparing for the tests that are coming...sienzzz....Miss the days at home...Miss everyone at home...

Newton In Romantic Mood

I've something quite interesting...It's funny but in fact it is true....

Newton In Romantic Mood:

Universal Law Of Love:
"Love Can Neither Be Created Nor Be Destroyed; Only It Can Transfer >FromOne Girlfriend To Another Girlfriend With Some Loss Of Money."

First Law Of Love:
"A Boy In Love With A Girl, Continue To Be In Love With Her And A GirlIn Love With A Boy, Continue To Be In Love With Him, Until Or UnlessAny External Agent(Brother Or Father Of The Gal) Comes Into Play AndBreak The Legs Of The Boy. "

Second Law Of Love:
"The Rate Of Change Of Intensity Of Love Of A Girl Towards A Boy IsDirectly Proportional To The Instantaneous Bank Balance Of The Boy AndThe Direction Of This Love Is Same To As Increment Or Decrement Of TheBank Balance. "

Third Law Of Love:
"The Force Applied While Proposing A Girl By A Boy Is Equal And OppositeTo The Force Applied By The Girl While Slapping."

Journey to Grow Up

Juz finished my Probability and Statistics test and Programming assignments 2day....Coming up next, I've to sit for my Calculus and Discrete Maths tests next week....Those 2 subjects are the subjects which i think is among the toughest of all the other subjects for this semester...It's impossible for me to relax during next week....It will juz be another tough week for me next week...Y shud I suffer for all this???Izzit for my future???Izzit for my family???Or izzit juz bcoz it is a journey for me to grow up???Without going through all these hardships or difficulties, I won't be able to grow up and I will remain as what I was previously....

Some of the times, I will think back about the previous me, before I went to National Service, before I went to Kampar for my foundation, and even before I came to KL, a big city compared to Kuantan....

During those days in secondary school, I was protected by my family...No matter what I did, they will be right there by my side...suppport me for everything that I did...Then, during the time I went to NS, I cried for almost everyday during the three months interval...That was the time when I missed my home the most...My papa, my mama, my grandma, my sis, my bro, the food that my mama cook and even my bed...Those are the things and people that I missed the most during that time... But, I've went through the three months time safely and completed my training...And after the training, I know that I became more mature and independent....After that, I went to Kampar for my foundation course...Of course, during that period of time, I missed my family too....Luckily, I've made many friends during foundation in Kampar...That's the main reason I was able to go through my life in Kampar happily...with all the sweetest memories that my precious TD4 gave me....Now, I'm in KL, studying my degree course...It's kinda struggelling and stressed...Maybe it's becoz this is only the beginning of my life in KL...I still nid some time for me to suit myself in this new place...

There's no doubt that there will be more and more challenges waiting for me in my future life...But I believe that I can go through all those challenges becoz I have the love from my family, the support from my friends, and most importantly, I believe in myself...believe in the will power I have of getting all the problems in my life solved...as what I did previously...It's juz a journey for me to grow up....

烦

最近真的很烦...压得我有点喘不过气...好想家,真的很想回家...

其实我也不是很清楚自己到底在烦什么...考试吗??房子问题吗??也许这些烦恼是自找的...但他们真的就要把我逼疯了...

我真的很烦, 很乱,不知道自己的忍耐极限到底还剩多少...希望周末的到来...我要回家...即使只是暂时抛开这些烦恼... 但是我真的很想回家!!!!!!!!!

Busy Life

My degree life started to get more buzy recently...Tests, quizes and assignments are coming...Obviously, it's time for me to study...but lazy me was not able to make myself in " study mode"....

Since more tests are coming for the next few weeks, I've decided to spend this weekend in KL to study...I'm not sure whether I'm going to study hard during this weekend or not...but I hope that I've made the correct choice to stay here...Hope that I can really concentrate on my study during this weekend....

Meaningful

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly.

The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.

But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.

Love can make you happy but often it hurts.

But love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.

So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.'

It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care.

Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.

Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.

Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.

The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is:

To let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.'

Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.'

Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.'

Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together,

but how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.

The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love:

Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else.

But it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS

Love hurts when you break up with someone.

It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.

But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,

only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.

If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.

Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature,
never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

My 19th Birthday

Whoa...I'm 19!!!!

This year, I celebrated my birthday with my lovely TD4 classmates....its great 2 have them 2gether with me this year...As usual, TD4 gave me a big surprise during my birthday as it is the our tradition...I was really surprise coz i thought that they will celebrate my birthday on the next day....Zhong Hao cheated me...haha...Anyway, I was really happy and perhaps a little bit touched during that moment...That was my 1st birthday celebrated with TD4..It was really a nice memory for me...I love TD4...

Then during Friday(3 July) I went to Mid Valley with Peggy and Kelvy....I bought myself 3 birthday presents-->>a shirt, a bag, and a pair of Nike Shoes...haha...Then, we took our lunch in Sushi King and after that yam cha at Secret Recipe...I admit that I really spend a lot of money on that day...but juz for that day, I promised myself that I won't simply spend money dy...haha...

2day, I met some of my secondary schoolmates in KLCC...Shinn Yonn, Ting Yee, Jun Jun, Gabriel, Yew Hong, Sook Mun and I attended our small little gathering....We went to watch Ice Age 3..It was quite a nice movie actually...Nice day hanging out with them although I was damn tired....Shinn Yonn will be leaving to Johor 2ml...Wish him all the best wherever he is..and hope that he will remember us in Malaysia after he go back to England...haha...

Presents my friends gave me--

Deep inside my heart,I'm really happy!!!Thx to all my friends!!!!